What hundreds of failed PR emails taught me about readiness, embodiment, and the sacred switch that changes everything.

I gave a TEDx talk in March of 2019. And like a lot of people, I thought it would catapult me into a new dimension: speaking gigs, podcasts, partnerships. I paid over $5,000 for visibility services. Hundreds of pitches were sent. Practically none of them landed. The only traction I got was from my own organic reach.

And I made that mean something about me. I spiraled. Not just into imposter syndrome, but into a kind of despair that nearly cost me my life.

But here’s what I know now, through deep prayer and devotion to my craft:

It wasn’t the visibility strategy that was missing. It was the readiness. It was the embodiment.

You’ve got to be lit up from the inside before amplification can even begin.

As Abraham Hicks says, you’re like a taxicab. When your light’s on, people know you’re available. When it’s off, they don’t even try to get in. And mine? It wasn’t on. It couldn’t be. I had healing to do. Shadow work. Ego death. Integration. Until that happened, I wasn’t ready to be seen.

Now, when we pitch someone through Mosaic, we check your light first.

Are you ready to be seen? Not to perform. Not to recite someone else’s theory. But are you truly, deeply, and energetically ready at a soul level?

Because if you’re not, that’s okay. We can help you get there. But we won’t push you before you’re aligned. That’s not PR. That’s sabotage.

This isn’t just about visibility. It’s about resonance. It’s about timing. It’s about honoring the sacred work.

The silence I received back then wasn’t rejection. It was protection.

A hard-fought hallelujah. And the light is on now.